Akele Hum Akele Tum...

"Akele Hum Akele Tum..." that's precisely the movie I saw a scene of and was bothered by a thought I just couldn't resist putting up here...

Imagine a situations, there is a married couple, the husband for some reason( be it his being orthodox or struggling himself), does not let his wife make her own career. He expects her to take care of the house and their child and that is it. However she has a passion,.a dream she had grown up with, and wants to make something of herself, she has been doing her duties all along but isn't happy being just a wife and a mother..

She is, so frustrated with her life, one day that she wishes to leave the house and chase her dream. The only thing she is worried about is her child, she loves him too much to abandon him, but she knows if she takes the child with her she will not be able to provide for him for at least till the time she struggles and rubs her heels on barren ground. She wants him to get all that could be provided to him...

So what is that she should do? stay back and kill her dream, stay unhappy for the rest of her life? or chase her dream, take her child along but keep him in rags too? or go alone in her quest leaving the child behind??

I wonder what is the right path?

Arziyaan.... if you havent read this song you ceratinly have missed something!

Arziyan saari main,
Chehre pe likh ke laaya hu,
Tum se kya maangu main,
Tum khud hi samajh lo,
Ya maula.. maula maula..

Darare darare hain maathe pe maula,
Murammat muqadaar ki kar do maula,
Mere maula..

Tere darr pe jhuka hu, mita hu bana hu,
Murammat muqadaar ki kar do maula..

Jo bhi tere darr aaya, jhukne jo sar aaya,
Mastiyaan piye sab ko,jhoomta nazar aaya

Pyaas leke aaya tha dariyaa wo bhar laaya,
Noor ki baarish mein bheegta sa tarr aaya,

Darare darare hain maathe pe maula,
Murammat muqadaar ki kar do maula,
Mere maula..

Jo bhi tere darr aaya, jhukne jo sar aaya,
Mastiyaan piye sab ko,jhoomta nazar aaya

Ek khushbu aati thi,
Main bhatakta jaata tha,
Reshmi si maaya thi,
Aur main taktaa jaata tha,
Jab teri gali aaya, sach tabhi nazar aaya
Mujh mein hi woh khushbu thi,
Jisse tune milwaya,

Maula maula maula mere maula,
Darare darare hain maathe pe maula,
Murammat muqadaar ki kar do maula,
Mere maula..

Toot ke bikharna mujhko zarur aata hai,
Warna ibaadat wala shahur aata hai,
Sajde mein rehne do, ab kahin naa jaunga,
Ab jo tumne thukraya to sawar naa paaunga,

Darare darare hain maathe pe maula,
Murammat muqadaar ki kar do maula,
Mere maula..

Sar utha ke maine to kitni khwahishein ki thi,
Kitne khwab dekhe the, kitni koshishein ki thi,
Jab tu rubaroo aaya, nazre naa mila paaya,
Sar jhuka ke ek pal mein maine kya nahi paaya,

Mora piya ghar aaya, mora piya ghar aaya,
Mora piya ghar aaya, mora piya ghar aaya..

What do you then?

Have you ever felt like being left alone... and yet when you are left alone, you miss being with people? All the preaching and the talking sounds like faff..Try to stay happy, smile, fight the negativity, stop frowning... and then it becomes blah blah and some more blah blah... you actually feel like saying... "shut the hell up, what do you know?" But... when you contemplate the situation you find your iedas sounding hollow? What do you do then?

What do you do then???

gilmore girls theme song..

Wanting you the way I do
I only want to be with you
And I would go to the ends of the earth
Cause, darling, to me that's you're worth

Where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead

If you're out on the road
Feeling lonely, and so cold
All you have to do is call my name
And I'll be there on the next train

Where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead

I always wanted a real home with flowers on the windowsill
But if you want to live in New York City, honey, you know I will
I never thought I could get satisfaction from just one man
But if anyone can keep me happy, you're the one who can

And where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead

blah blah...

The brighter side of life is out there somewhere... all you got to do is to find it!

Not happy, not sad what are we then, gumballs?
(nice one eh? just made that up!)

Life is not a smooth sail... and to tell you the truth i don't want it too be... everything becomes too simple, too predictable.What is the fun in it then? I donno what I want... and I am happy not knowing... lets just say I have a smile on my face, I am not losing my cool so often, I am not picking up on people(well i'm bot being picked on actually), I like this new me... M i new? Can someone turn new? blabbering i guess... but life ain bad you know... nothin happenin... its normal... (and for me that is not normal...) may be it will interesting (in a good way i hope!)

guess i'll just have to wait and watch!

The brighter side of life is out there somewhere... all i got to do is to find it! And I Can't wait!

Monday the 13th

One of the worst Mondays and one of the worst thirteens,yesterday would have been but i have learnt to view the positive side of the picture... i realized somehow someway it isn't gonna be a cake walk... it never is.. so there there is no point thinking how unfair the world is to you? or why it seems to just be happening to you?
if it has come your way you will get over it... so relax sit back... do your bit and if it still doesn't work go have an LIIT ultimate at TGIF like i did! :P

whose pain is graver? your's or their's?

Pain is good... a friend of mine and a dear one at that wrote a blog on how when "Sometimes it really hurts down there in your heart you really feel like inflicting physical pain upon yourself... sorta feels good.. "

I just some how felt a dire need to comment on it...
As i read the first line the first image that actually crossed my mind were images from the very famous book by Dan Brown, "The Da-Vinci Code"(only to find that similar images crossed my friend's mind too)

The character Silas inflicted pain upon himself every time he felt he had done something wrong. It was his way of finding solace, his way of apologizing, his was of begging for forgiveness from God. He went around slaughtering people and came home and prayed for forgiveness.. He felt that if he would inflict pain upon himself it would commensurate his ill doings,soften the God's huge heart and he would be saved of severe consequences...

I beg to differ.. Isn't this hypocrisy?

Did he deem God a fool?

Did he think God would be blinded by his pain and will not see the pains of the people he hurt and killed?

Did he think the pain of those families his merciless killing affected was by any means comparable to the pain he self inflicted on his body, let alone less than his own?

Well in fact he did... that is why he did what he did.

I wonder, isn't it satanic in itself to inflict pain on yourself!
Deriving pleasure out of your own pain is satanic too and it is addictive...

Lets come out of the book and talk about reality... Imagine you are so angry at someone/ something that you cause yourself pain, how will the people you care about/ who care about you feel, seeing you in pain? At this juncture they only know about the pain you feel and they are hurt within but think about it when they really found out it was your doing... what will they go through then?

Its easy to vent out by hurting yourself, being destructive. Rising above the heart ache is what is difficult. The pain in the heart is in fact love, to hurt yourself is not. I don't say be divine and forgive and forget... but i don't think there is a need to do the exact reverse of it either. When you love someone, don't hurt them, and don't hurt those who love you. Your hurting yourself will hurt them more than your physical pain.. And I have nothing to say about enjoying the self inflicted pain.. to me it is sadistic.

Whose pain is graver? yours or theirs?
Think..